Please Note: This episode contains a brief description of sexual violence (and casual swearing too, but we don’t usually warn you about that).
Ariadne, Jacqueline, North, and others unnamed are all part of the same system. They share a single body. They take turns “fronting” the body, controlling it. And when they’re not fronting, the system members are free to roam an infinite landscape, a pocket reality that they call the “in-world”.
Together, they go to work every day, spend time with friends and lovers, go to shows, play video games, and live many aspects of a typical life. But when multiple people with varying interests, social skills, and gender identities share a single body, some things are tough. It’s tough to live in a world that doesn’t understand you, doesn’t know your secrets, or just wants to diagnose you.
The system members refer to their living situation as being “plural” or “multiple”. Psychiatry calls similar situations Dissociative Identity Disorder. The system members don’t identify with this diagnosis, as it requires the multiplicity to be hindrance. They say it’s the opposite of a hindrance--it’s what lets them survive.
Another perspective on multiplicity can be found in the work of philosopher John Perry. 1978, he published a paper called A Dialogue on Personal Identity and Immortality which critiques popular assumptions of personal identity. This writing was brought to our attention by Barry Lam, the producer of a soon-to-be released philosophy podcast called Hi-Phi Nation.
We mailed our spare recorder to the system’s home in the spring of 2016. Over the course of several months, system members created diary entries and field recordings to share the world that Ari calls too “bright and loud”.
Producer Jeff Emtman did an interview with Jacqueline, where she also described the building process of the in-world, including the creation a spot of reverence within it--a grove of redwood trees modeled on a forest near Oakland.
One day, Jacqueline hopes to move from the city to the wilderness and have dogs. Jacqueline said that there are no current plans to integrate the system.
We found out about Ari, North, Jacqueline et al because we asked for listeners to tell us their secrets. If you have a secret you’d like to share, please get in touch.
This episode was produced by Jeff Emtman and Bethany Denton. Nick White is HBM’s editor at KCRW.
Music: The Black Spot
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